Sunday, December 30, 2007
Looking forward to uninterrupted, pagerless, phoneless, leashless church next week.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
I just wanted to spread the news that i have been anxiously awaiting for the past 16 days! Drew finally got to open his christmas gift this AM!!!! For those of you that have helped me along the journey (from advice, to hiding, to encouraging) THANKS! Drew loves his new Mac computer and i am sure i have lost his attention for quite awile. oh well! hope everyone is getting to spend time with family and friends...again, Merry Christmas!!!
Saturday, December 22, 2007
is that possible with the intake of a single drop of alcohol?
anyone who has any anti-nausea/vomiting tips should speak up now!
the whole bland food, liquids only isnt cutting it right now.
anyone else want to fast fwd. to february?
who wants to vomit, even if the end outcome will be so wonderful.
i am currently in a phase where i cant keep anything down.
in no particular order, plain eggs, plain toast, gatorade and pretzels, all hate me lately.
i dont think one could eat much more bland than that.
i am not a happy camper right now.
blah- that sums me up.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Sunday, December 16, 2007
i must admit i feel guilt ridden as i have spent the entire day inside so far as many of my neighbors are working so hard to clear the massive amount of snow we got last night. according to the news we have gotten 9 inches so far.
it is so beautiful outside.
we are blessed with a neighbor who we share a driveway with that owns a snowblower! thus the reason i havent left the house. i did get off the couch a few times today, once to make a lasagna, not much action other than that.
alright, my couch misses me...
Friday, December 14, 2007
ok baby jackson, back to sleep...
1. eat more
2. dont work out like you arent pregnant
so the usual late day get to the gym early routine didnt work out so much this morning. I tried a yogurt before my ellipitcal/bike routine at the gym. I made it through elliptical. i thought i would cut back a bit and bike, but that is when the wave hit me. So for future reference i am going to try and eat a lot more before working out and see if that works out...
Thursday, December 13, 2007
mark your calendar please (or iphone, blackberry, or whatever you use). Dad Holt (Drews dad) is having surgery on this Friday, 11am! He is having something removed from his vocal cords, which he had once and it has since returned. It is a fairly routine surgery, but the risks are great. If something went wrong it could damage his vocal cords and in turn his voice. For those that dont know him, he is a pastor of a church in Oxford, MI and we all know how pastors love to talk! His voice is his life. Please prayer for guidance for the ENT surgeon and strength for dad. Thanks!!!
I made the big announcement at small group last night, it was so nice to share it with so many that care so much. Today has just been an OK day, i am feeling tired and just kind of "blah" not really sick to my stomach, but just not myself, but thats OK, the more signs the better (within reason, am i allowed to be that picky?) i have a great feeling about the future of this wonderful life and cant wait to share it with more people, as for now, i am just going to relax and wrap some Christmas gifts!!!
Hoping tomorrow is a little bit better...
Monday, December 10, 2007
we are pregnant! this morning, i took a test, even though i promised myself i would wait until wednesday, but i just couldnt, so i just gave in. I got the little + i have been hoping for and have been excited all day. I obviously told Drew right away, and in his half asleep state, he acted really excited. He later told me that when he woke up we thought it was all a dream until he went in the bathroom and saw the box and realized it was all true. I told my best friend Kristin right away in the morning when i got to work and she was really excited but couldnt really express it (she didnt want to give away the secret). I also told 2 friends at work, because they have been with me along my little journey as of late and they were also really excited. So i am going to save these blogs for now, until it is "kosher" to tell people and then they can play catch up as to what i was thinking. so for now, no more diet soda, and lots of rest and good eating. My little cell sack has a lot of work to do. Thank you God! You are sooooo good!
Sunday, December 9, 2007
ok, venting over, onto tithing...
it is funny that the topic came up at a friends house tonight, because it is something that Drew and i have been thinking and talking about lately and realized it was finally time to give back to God what was always his in the first place. it didnt seem like such a big deal when i used to "tithe" in college, i mean when you have no income, 10% percent of zero, is zero (i know, i am so good at math) so giving 5 bucks made you feel so good. well after that, we lost touch with a church and in turn didnt have a place to tithe. In the last year or so we have found a new church and have regularly started attending. A few weeks ago we visited a church for Thanksgiving and heard a message about living in this world, but not being OF this world, a small area was touched upon the discipline of giving and the blessings that will be given back to you. That was kind of a "eye opening" moment for us and we just kind of knew it was time to stop being selfish and give back what we should have been giving a long time ago. Honestly, it is So hard to give up that money, because when you think about the amount (now that we both are blessed with good jobs) and what else we could be doing with it, but that is just it, we are so blessed to even have jobs and we need to give back to share with others, to bless others that are doing incredible things to serve God. so we are not perfect, but we are giving it what we have, and i wish i could say that i love giving the money to the church and that i dont feel hesitant and that God is just showering us with blessings (although i know He is, just to be blessed with my incredible family and friends), but for now it is the act and we will continue to do it and pray that that part of our hearts will be chiseled into softness and generosity.
Today i learned a bit about the Jewish people. This passage below was so important to them. It was referred to as the Shema, meaning to listen or hear. People in Jerusalem literally have leather wrapped around their arms and tiny boxes tied to them (to this day even)
Deuteronomy 6: 1-9
This is the commandment, the rules and regulations, that God, your God, commanded me to teach you to live out in the land you're about to cross into to possess. This is so that you'll live in deep reverence before God life long, observing all his rules and regulations that I'm commanding you, you and your children and your grandchildren, living good long lives.
Listen obediently, Israel. Do what you're told so that you'll have a good life, a life of abundance and bounty, just as God promised, in a land abounding in milk and honey.
God, our God! God the one and only!
Love God, your God, with your whole heart, love him with all that's in you, love him with all you've got!
Write these commandments that I've given you today on your hearts. Get them inside of you and then get them inside your children. Talk about them wherever you are, sitting at home or walking in the street, talk about them from the time you up in the morning to when you fall into bed at night. Tie them on your hands and foreheads as a reminder: inscribe them on the doorposts of your homes and on your city gates.
The study challenges you to consider how seriously you take the word of God. This is something i always wondered about, where do you draw the line? how do you know what is "old school" and what should we be doing still today? should we be doing a lot, but we just do what is convientant. It is something that needs some serious prayer in my life... what do you desire, God? Please show us your clarity, your wisdom.
This is pretty much what it looks like outside.
Ok, so i like to exaggerate a bit.
ps. i discovered that my car does fishtail, i guess i should slow down.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
who really sweats like that?
sorry if you do. i guess i shouldnt make fun of you.
well, i have managed to occupy every last minute of my days.
Some minutes even have multiple things crammed into them.
It is quite amazing.
I think the "i can do everything" all began Wednesday...
First, I awoke and basically rolled out of bed into the fresh snow (so perfect!) ok, let me rephrase that, i dont sleep outside e. I didn't really just roll into the snow. ok, now that no one is confused, I got up (inside the house) and got dressed and went over to the church for Advent prayer hour. It was so great to set aside that hour of silence, prayer, worship. It is so few times that we really do that. Like now for example, I could be "silent" but oh no, blogging away. After prayer I crammed in a swim, which took almost 40 minutes to get to the gym, because the weather was bad. Oh yeah, on the way, there was a horrible accident on US 23 S, as i drove by i got an awful feeling and just began to cry, very random indeed, but i just knew something was horribly wrong. I later found out that the man in the car died, It was like i knew at the time. I had this overpowering urge to pray for the family and friends of that person as i drove by. I then went about usual deeds, 8 of hours of work and then in my 45 minutes of time, I had to cram in a trip to Lowe's and buy some shelving units (proud of myself for that one) and off to small group where i was treated (thanks to Rich's birthday) with cake and ice cream for dinner, yumm...
Thursday: we had a baby shower for my best bud Kristin. It was a wonderful time and wa
s so perfect to bless her and the baby to be (i am convinced its a girl) but who knows!
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
I'd love to write more, but i am over booked this week and only allotted 4.2 minutes for blogging today.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Friday- My younger sister came into town, she goes to GVSU, to play volleyball on Saturday. Friday night, Drew was home so we decided to go out for Mexican. I couldnt think of anywhere close to go, so we thought we would go to Dundee (something we never do) because i "thought" i knew where a Mexican restaurant was, plus Michelle had never been to Cabela's, so we thought we'd check it out. Well, indeed there is Mexican restaurant just where i pictured it. We walked in and saw our friends Ross and Angela from church. What are the chances? I have probably only been to Dundee (just 10 miles from my house) 3 times in my life, and here they were. They graciously slid over so we could join them, and we all had a wonderful meal. Half way through, in walked two of the doctors that I work with and their family, celebrating lil' Nathaniel's birthday, Wow, i guess this place is the place to be. (plus i looked pretty darn popular :) Afterward we checked out Cabela's (drew's dream) and michelle and i checked out all the deadness, dead animals everywhere, but the aquarium is really cool.
12.5 hours is a long time, especially if you are in a college gym watching many teams play many, countless games of volleyball. Even if you are watching your sister, who you dearly love, play, it is a LONG day. That is what i did yesterday, from sun up to down down, plus a few, i watched my sister set for GVSU's club volleyball team. I am sad to announce that after all that, they lost in the finals to the host team, UM. THey came out of the beginning rounds ranked #1, but just couldnt hang on.
this has been a busy week. hence the fact that i haven't written much, i had some time today and was thinking, "where should i start today"...just then i went in the kitchen to make my tea (i had turned on the burner what seemed like 10 minutes ago, and i couldn't figure out why the kettle wasnt whistling yet...
ok-i need to stop here. i just turned the TV on and ESPN2 has the world arm wrestling championships on. not to offend anyone, but are you serious? the commentators are taking this so seriously, you would think we were watching the Super Bowl. I wonder how you get a job like that...haha, ok back to the story
... as soon as i entered the kitchen, my nose gave why to the awful truth. I had left the range cover on and the kettle was on top of that. essentially the burner had to burn through the whole cover before heating my water, opps! the kitchen was soon filled with smoke as i quickly tried to remove the cover and drape the towel over the smoke detector so it wouldnt go off (you learn a trick or two when you are a frequent disaster in the kithen.) i am proud to say that everything is OK now, except that the brand new Christmas decorated cover that I once owned, is toast, literally.
Monday, November 26, 2007
last Tuesday morning i found out a past coworkers husband had passed away. He was 44. He had a 8 and 12 year old. He was the "perfect dad". It was stunning, i didnt know what to say, what to write, what to do. What do you tell a 40 year old widow and her kids? The whole situation was so sad, but yesterday at the wake it was so refreshing to see Kim and her smile, her jokes, and her barriers, i guess. I was the one crying at HER husbands funeral and she was making me laugh, telling me it was ok to cry... what an oxymoron.
So if you are reading this, please just keep the Lord family in your prayers (Kim, Austin and Allie). Esp. pray for the kids. Austin was playing basketball with his dad, Scott, when this happened, right there in the gym. He is really struggling with blaming himself and is going to need some help during these years when "a boy needs his dad" i am not sure what else to say, it is all still seeping in.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
ok, we are also arrogant (drew says he isnt).
but really, we got to jump into action on friday morning. Like most crazy people, we were out the door at 3.45am to catch the "Black Friday" deals. We started at JCPenneys and grabbed the last 2 Christmas tress for a sweet price and were out that door by 420AM. we had to stopped at my parents house and drop them off (one for us, one for the rents) because there was no room for me in the trailblazer. I forgot to mention, we dragged my mom out of bed at this hour too!
so then we went back and walked around the mall a bit, anxiously awaiting the opening of Macy's at 6. Drew and I stood in line just before 6 to get in. there was a line upstairs and then a line downstairs at the escalators (not on yet). all of a sudden we heard screaming and i assumed they opened the doors, but soon realized that wasnt the case. At first i thought someone was caught in the escalator because at first glance i just saw someone lying on the ground. drew claims he knew someone had fallen down the stairs right away (in his words he is a "trained investigator").
As everyone else stared down from the balcony, drew and i ran down the up escalator, still not on (thank God). I assessed the situation and still thought the lady was unconscious. I took her pulse and thought i felt it, but my hands were shaky so bad i wasnt sure. I checked her wrist while trying to get her to talk to me and then realized she was ok.
she had a pulse
she could talk
she could squeeze my hands
now our only problem was that she had blood gushing out the back of her head.
after directing someone to call 911 and get the store managers (we were still so scared they would turn on the escalator and open the large doors near us and the crowd would rush in) i later found out that drew had his hand over the "emergency stop" bottom just in case.
There was a nurse there that was holding pressure on the back of the ladies head and we gathered all the info that EMS would need when they arrived (which was at least 15 minutes) good thing the lady was alive. It turns out they started to walk down the stairs and the lady tripped and fell 2/3 of the way down. We could tell by the coffee stains trailing down the stairs. Her daughter was with her and seemed awfully calm during this whole event. It makes me wonder if this has happened before. :)
I was ready to save her life, do CPR, save the day. but instead i just got to hold her hand. I shouldnt say "just" because i could tell she was scared to death and probably would have tried to get up if we werent there to make sure she didnt.
So anyway, I will probably never know how she did or if she is OK, but it was exciting nontheless and to top that, the item that i wanted to buy was still there! yea!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
i must be honest, i really struggle with Bible history. that is why i like going to church so much (one reason). someone who is much smarter than I and has already done all the research explains to me the whys, how's and where's of so many many years ago (selfish, i know). anyway so the past two days of Solo have been in Leviticus
Day 8 and 9: Letting go of Sin
I've been reading about offerings (absolution-offerings, whole-burnt-offering an so on.) it is a bit over my head. but i do get the letting go of sin, of sending of the animal with our sins, our iniquities. God says He didn't give animals the capacity to take on hurt or guilt, so we shouldn't feel guilty "giving" our sins to the animals/sacrifices. I am still working on this whole thought. But i see where they are coming for. it makes it seem so easy.
Give sin to animal, send animal away, sin forgiven. i dont mean to make light of it, i know there is much more to it, but like i said, i'm getting there.
ok, time for a run with my girls...Rain, Rain, go away!
Monday, November 19, 2007
When i first starting swimming this is what i felt like... take away my floaties and i was a goner. (It is funny how i find the need to find a photo that matches my story, but that seems to be half the fun on my new blogging habit.) I started swimming last summer when i was hurt with a running injury and had to find a non weight bearing activity to stay in shape. I was training for my first marathon so this was devastating to me at the time. i had no clue what to do since even biking bothered my leg, so i thought i would learn how to swim (at age 24). that was interesting, but with a little persistence anyone can learn anything (just about) so each day got a little easier and before i knew it i could swim a whole length without choking on water or something similar! But in all seriousness i really did start to enjoy my new activity and haven't stopped much. I did a couple of triathlons this summer but since have taken a break and lost my focus lately without an event to train for. So yesterday i decided it is time to get back on track. so last night i biked and this morning a finally got a good swim in ( 1 mile). I need an event to train for, which is very difficult here in Michigan , but i'll find something. i might even make a game time decision to jump in the Detroit turkey trot, well see :) i became such a good swimmer i will probably end up in Beijing next year (unless i turn down the Olympics, its a big decision)
ok ok, i know it is bad to lie. sorry!
its official: my friends and I are signed up to be bell ringers! (Dec. 15th for you relevant people, mark your calendars!) i can say this is a first and hopefully will be fun, but i guess we really aren't doing it to have fun, but to help those in need.
fun is a bonus.
The above bell is too big to ring, if fact it is the Worlds BIGGEST bell!so we ring a smaller version. I wonder if i am allowed to put kids that i dont know on my blog?...probably not, sorry kids.
This is a much more meaningful picture that i just found. It is very cool to see how practical the SA is. So think twice next time you walk past the red kettle. It is giving people hope, warmth, food and joy. Ok, that wasnt meant to be a guilt trip. but really all those pockets full of change really do add up.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Not really sure how this writer is different, but we will keep looking...i'll keep you posted.
Friday, November 16, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Well first off, nothing to do with what i just read, but i am plain old fire up after small group tonight. i am excited to serve, share, and hopefully spoil as many of God's people as I can. No strings attached. My prayer is for boldness, like i said tonight, my intentions are incredible, too bad intentions don't get the job done. Like today for example, i had this urge to pay for the mans coffee in front of me in line, but i chickened out, i was afraid what he might think of me, or that he would be offended, like i thought he looked poor or something. What i really need to do is just give it to God and let Him take control of the petty stuff. I am excited about what our small group is up to for this holiday season.. Yea!
OK onto the reading. Today was Moses and the burning bush. I wonder, did Moses think "maybe i should put out this fire" because to be honest if i saw a bush on fire, i wouldn't think "maybe it is God" I would think, oh shoot, where is the water, i should call 911 or maybe even just leave. Well good think Moses just had faith i suppose, he knew it was God and stayed, took off his sandals but then he hid and was afraid.
Why was he afraid?
Afraid to see his glory?Why did he want to hide?
was he ashamed?
it is just like Adam hiding in the garden when he realized he was naked... I am not sure i have experienced God quite like that...I'll have to think about that one.
But nonetheless, i do think God is stirring right now, and i am just going to "pay attention" and respond. I am willing, willing to respond. Good Night Friends.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Monday, November 12, 2007
I have realized I am full of questions, mainly because lack of knowledge but more even more so because of this great desire i have to learn and understand. Today we read about Jacob wrestling with "a man" who is apparently God or an angel. So what i struggle to understand is why God is asking so many questions (because we all know he already knows the answers). And what exactly does "he blessed him" mean? can other people "bless" people back then except for God? and if not, why doesn't Jacob know that it was God he was wrestling with? And if it really was God, then way couldn't He beat Jacob when they were wrestling? or better yet, why was he letting Jacob win? Was it all so he could be named Israel (G0d-wrestler). Is that why Israel is named so, were the Israelites God-wrestlers? Someday i will come back with answers, but for now, just more questions. I need to just keep reading...
Sunday, November 11, 2007
As i talked about the other day, I am starting a new devotional from The Message called Remix: Solo. My goal is (i seem to be big on goals these days) to blog a bit each day about the message, if i have time, maybe some days will take 4 days to read and that's ok, its not a challenge to get through, but to real dive in and get lost.
Ever wonder what would have happened if "the woman" never picked the fruit? or what if "the man" just said NO...would this world as we know it be entirely different? would Jesus still have had to come? was it just a matter of time before the serpent tricked someone? would it have been Adam/eve's children?
Well, we can wonder all we want, but the fact is: they picked, ate, sinned and here we are. Sometimes we deliberately sin against God. We "pick the fruit" that we know we shouldn't. man, why do we do that? we know how sweet life is, in His arms, with His love and we just turn away and enjoy the sweetness of this world. why?
My prayer is one for forgiveness and desire to turn away from the temptations that we encounter so often. That we can look the serpent in the eyes and command him back to he came from.
- I'm not defined by what I'm not. - Yes, we all sin, but NO we do not have to be defined as sinners. we are not defined by our faults, failures, sins and letdowns. We can choose to be defined by the Grace that covers us and helps us in our rebuilding, forgiveness and mercy towards others, but more importantly for ourselves.
- I'm loved just because I exist. - Pretty powerful in itself huh? God loves us just because he made us, not because of anything we do, did or will did. that's it. period.
- Jesus, the Rabbi, ACTUALLY thinks we can be like Him. This was something i didn't know much about, but it was really interesting to learn about the Jewish faith and how only the best of the best made it to be Rabbi's instead of learning the family trade. And when a Rabbi saw someone with absolute potential he may ask him to "come, follow me." and that is exactly what Jesus did with His disciples and exactly what He did with each of us. He really thinks we CAN be like Him.
- We need to live up to what we've already attained. -God has given us such ability, we already have it, it is IN us, we just have to use it.
- The thought has stuck with me the most so far is just the ability to 'long to be comfortable in my own skin' It is something we probably don't think about, but really, how many people are completely comfortable with who they are? We often care for others, mentor others, heal others, pray for OTHERS because we are afraid to face our own pain.